So I made a slide show of some pics of the boys and our house. Since I do a little decorating on the side for close friends and family, I decided I would put up some pics of my own house. I still need to get some before and afters up of some of the other homes I have worked on. But that is me. I am not very on the ball that way. :)
We have been really working for our survival in these hard economic times. It's amazing the sweet blessings of support you receive when you are down or hurting. We live in a great community. Wonderful friends and neighbors. I was especially impressed with our ward, after we learned of a good friends passing last Monday. He was young and left behind a young family of four children and a wonderful wife. There has been so many people willing to help in their own way. We have so many questions, but I know the Lord is very aware of my sweet friend Andrea and her children.
I am grateful for all that I am learning right now. I am humbled by this trial. I feel like I am learning a lot about myself and our mistakes and also our good choices. What we would never do again and what we will constantly strive to do always . I am learning who to trust and who to let in. But, I don't think that trials are really about other people that hurt you and that you will never allow that to happen again. I believe that it rest on our shoulders and our shoulders only.
I had an amazing answer to my prayers last night. I had knelt down and prayed for help to get through these hard times, and then I read my scriptures. I am in 2 Nephi (Isaiah sections) and I realized that until we take responsibility for our own actions, that the Lord cannot help us. Here lies my point. Others can hurt us, but we are the ones that can hurt us the most. Until WE repent and WE forgive, we cannot move to that next level in life. It was good to turn back onto my knees after reading this and take responsibility for my own actions and my own pride. WOW, that felt good. :) Sorry so deep. I only meant to give an update on us and you got a whole lotta information about me.
Anyway, thanks for all your kind words and love and help. Truly you are all a blessing to my life.